Doesn’t seem like it’s been that long, but it’s been a year since my little furry buddy had to check out. Still miss him from time to time … was such a good cat! Found this pic of tiger and my nephew nick taken about 2 years ago in the upstairs bedroom of the little farm house my sister was renting. Note how he likes to be petted! lol. the subsequent shots are humourous. Next one is one of confusion. Following by one where he’s noticeably pissed off by the whole picture-taking thing. typical.
Nick and Tiger
Yesterday i was feeling pretty blue, after being stuck in bed for a good 5 days without break .. and many more before. Trying to get prescription for pain pills renewed, talk to my 2 docs to get help with back problems (unsuccessfully) and talk about a few other things. Seemed like i was in a pretty hopeless situation. Not knowing how to help myself, and doctors seemingly clueless as well.

I was reminded of the reasons I decided it was time to put Tiger to sleep. He could no longer get around. Couldn’t eat by himself. Couldn’t clean himself properly. Bones had become frail. One of his major organs was on the verge of failure. Was noticeably suffering in his condition. Was somewhat symbolic that I had found myself in much the same situation. Except I can still eat! Reason enough to continue i guess. lol.

Today feeling a bit better physically and quite a bit better emotionally. With the help of my sister and the kids bringing me my meals and what not … I’ve been able to stay put in bed for longer periods. Last night i managed to stay in bed almost 8hrs without having to get up - huge difference from getting up every 2-3 hours. And I think it’s starting to help my back. Having to get up frequently or climb the stairs … i think i kept aggravating my back. Doesn’t take much it seems. A wrong move going up the stairs. A turn while walking. Or muscles tensing up on the way down to sitting on bed or chair. These things happen and I feel something pull .. it hurts beyond measure and resets the clock on healing I think. I’m going to take advantage of my sister being home and keep as still as possible for another day or 2 before I venture around too much. Besides, other than the back pain … a trip to the washroom (which apparently takes me OVER 30 minutes!) tires me out. Liver affecting energy levels and I do worry that the inactivity may have weakened my muscles further … but that’s more recoverable than a broken back! So wtf.

Anyway, feeling a tad more hopeful that i can at least beat this back thing. Going to contact the CLSC on monday to see if i can get a bit of help from them … at the very least it would be great if i could have someone come and take my blood. I’m a week overdue for testing … and getting a bit worried about my liver and kidneys. Both with my rapid drop in prednisone and general weird feeling inside. Perhaps I will be able to get someone to come once and a while and help out. There’s only so much my sis can do here looking after me … she has work, herself and 2 kids to take care of. Also going to try and get a referral for some kind of back specialist too.

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