Sometime today my website counter crossed the 4000 site hits (8500 page counts). In the grand scheme of things, I guess that’s not a lot for just under 3 years … but it’s not insignificant for sure! Works out to about 4 hits a day. No one is subscribed to my RSS feed except myself (do people actually use this? lol)
Main visitors seem to come from Read More »
Trying to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life. It’s tough. I know it’s like that for everyone, but I’m feeling really challenged by it. For one thing, I know that finding something to do in the future means i have to give up most, if not all of what I’ve worked on in the past - career wise at least. Also, the fact of actually ATTAINING that job/activity is really difficult because I’m so unaccustomed to doing anything outside of the academic world.
So what do I want to do? i dunno! stop asking! lol. ok, i took some polls: Read More »
Suffering from severe boredom here this week. Broke. Frustrated. Restless. beautiful day out … but I have nowhere to go and only 2.25$ to spend. Being sick doesn’t really pay well. :S Former employer contacted me last week, looking for me to finish up some work that has been due for about 2 years now. I want to do it, but really don’t relish getting back into the project. It was such a drain on me back when I was working and getting paid to work on it. Burned me out then. Now, not even getting paid to work on it and the act of just sitting at my desk for a couple hours is painful … well, not much incentive is there? It’s a good career move to finish your projects of course … but I’m less and less keen on my chosen career path these days and also doubtful I’ll be able to get back at it any time in the near future. blah
Makes me wish i took more advantage of my situation while i was working … I was making decent money and had the time to do so much … but I didn’t. Work was intense about half the time, but the other half was just slacking and waiting for next research push. Could have travelled, visited old friends, site-seeing .. whatever. Now I can’t. No energy, no money, and no real desire to go out in public or meet old friends looking and feeling like i do. Feel so stupid to have wasted all that time and sooooooo angry at my present situation. I need to get myself a punching bag or something to work out this frustration. Feel so stuck. Can’t even go for a bike ride because my bike is broken and no money to fix … and won’t have any either before winter. Hate walking. So I’m home, staring at the walls. Only outings are to the grocery store or to pick up kids somewhere. But don’t have any extra money to spend shopping this month and kids gone to their dad’s today … so i could go to the park I guess, and stare at the trees for a change. lol. Pathetic.
It must be all this nice weather we are having here in southern Quebec, my spirits have been a bit higher the past couple days. Was able to get out and run some errands today and yesterday and came back not feeling too bad. I think this weekend I’ll take my bike for a tune up and hopefully ride it a bit for some exercise. I’m supposed to be walking more than I am, but I find it hard to get started doing that … and really boring once I get going. At least riding a bike it would feel like i’m doing something. 
My uncle recommended that I make a trip out to the driving range also, hit some golf balls. Might do that too soon, haven’t played golf in a long long time … not since I was at Notre Dame I think. Always enjoyed it though, perhaps I should try and set aside enough $$ each month for a trip to the golf course … would be good for my mood I think … well, if I find someone to play with at least! Read More »
Now this is one pissed-off kitty! LoL. Took my sister’s cat, Maggie (a.k.a. Stupid Cat) to the Pet Salon earlier this week … this is the result. (she’s not smart enough to clean herself properly, so her long fur was getting all bunched up … had to be shaved off) I laugh every time I see her. Read More »
Not a good day today. 
Mind is all full of negativity and frustration. Three topics have me pretty worried and upset. 1) The effect that having to take steroids is having on me and my life, 2) upcoming bankruptcy and basically not having enough money to make it through this month, 3) the idea that I’m not getting any better physically and powerless to do anything about it. Kinda big, eh? Anyway, this is what happened the past 2 days … Read More »
It seems as though news of my health problems (and my blog) has spread faster than my ability to get in touch with everyone! … as I intend to do as soon as I can. Emails seem to take a long time to write, and phone conversations are kinda exhausting if there’s more than a couple a day … but I will get around to everyone eventually!
I’ve been feeling pretty good the past couple of days. Energy is high and spirits improving. Read More »
OK. That trailer hitch thing was a stupid idea. :/ I made an appointment to get the hitch installed. Then a few days later I headed out to see these trailers. Well, let me tell you this, someone could get rich my running around selling tape measures to all the local UHaul places. The trailer with is supposedly 8feet*5feet*6feet is more like 6*4*5 … basically not big enough to hold anything except boxes. I had envisioned the trailer of being able to hold my futon, bed, and major electronics. No freaking way!
So back to the movers. *sigh* I guess I didn’t need that last monthly paycheck … not like I’m going to be unemployed indefinitely or anything right? (yes, sarcasm!). Read More »
